I really don't want this to turn sappy, and I'm hoping it won't.
So this is the video for The Cave, which is a song, by Mumford & Sons, which is the band that created it. I have listened to this song plenty of times, and the album, too, but the other day when it came on the radio, it hit me like I had never heard it. This happens sometimes.
There were a few lines that especially jumped out at me and all-of-a-sudden took on an extremely weighty significance. Things like one of the stanzas in the chorus, "And I'll find strength in pain/ And I will change my ways/ I'll know my name as it's called again," and then this stanza towards the end, "So make your siren's call/ and sing all you want/ I will not hear what you have to say."
In what was probably the most disillusioning/depressing/anger-filled/worst/liberating part of my life (approximately the second half of 2008)* I felt like I had gone through a major transformation, in just about every aspect of my life. I restarted introducing myself by my first name, even, which is why the new name line sticks out. And all of it, I feel, is for the better. The handful of people that saw me through that have become some of my closest and dearest friends, and by the end and virtue of that process, I started dating She-Who-Would-Be-Wife.
Had I not emerged from that suffocating bubble of a cave, I would not be where I am now, with who I am now, and as happy as I am now, and that's a fact.
* All I'm saying is I'm pretty glad I had calmed down enough by the time I figured out who it was that narc'ed me out, because I'm sure there would have been some tire iron lulz and I'm sure I would have regretted it.
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